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i've been thinking about how life used to be so easy. decisions were nothing consequential or concrete. when i lived on ash street the drama and craziness happened all around me but here i stand today 100% unaffected by the majority of it. we'd drink every day, bike around in the dark with no helmets, drive recklessly, work as little as we could manage, and have affairs of the heart that could only be considered scandalous by today's standards. that wasn't all too long ago but i guess i've gotten to the point in life where 5 years ago means it may as well have been a different person entirely. maybe i'm remembering it differently than it actually was. i know there was a lot of heartbreak and headache involved but that's not the stuff that sticks in my memory. i remember coming home from school at lunch, drinking a beer and watching a few minutes of trash tv with ben. then i biked back to mica and probably had a great day. i got to live every artsy nerd kid's dream. sometimes i feel like i squandered it. maybe not. i hope not.
real talk. more to come.